fix you

as a mom sometimes you feel like you need to fix everything. you know logically you can't, but when your child is in pain, struggling or feeling insecure about something you just want to fix it.
our jp has been struggling recently and naturally as a mother i struggle with him. during a particularly difficult morning i lost my patience and left the chaos of the morning routine and knelt down in prayer for about 15 minutes (about a lifetime in morning chaos). i doubt my children even noticed until they opened their lunchbox at school and saw the lack of yumminess.
during that prayer i realized that i was personalizing his struggles too much. i was taking on his struggle, not helping. my job is to support him, not be him. sometimes being a mom means to be mom. sometimes i need to be hands off and allow him to go through this on his own knowing that i will be there whenever he is ready.

i listened to this song........and cried.....and cried some more.....




"today i am thankful for the power of prayer"